not a tv show

If you are reading this it’s likely you have some degree of personal relationship with me — long-time friend, former soul mate, parent of a kid, on the job, acquaintance from one of “the rooms” or another, someone I’ve never yet met in person but have big, good feelings about. So, I’m guessing on your end there is a bit of clarity of sorts, a measuring stick, for “getting me.” And that makes me happy: a connection thing; some shared experience; even a ‘We’re all bozos on this bus.”

All of which ought to help when I make this statement of how I am and feel today, which is a statement of fact – like “The hills have turned green’ – not a complaint, not attention-seeking, even not bragging. Interestingly, it’s just simply like this:

I have never felt so lost in my life as I do now. So utterly lost.